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Someone should run my dog over or something, because that would be the perfect ending to this emosong that is MY DAY TODAY.
My iPod has finally decided to die and have multitudes of file corruptions. I never named it before, but now I name it FAGGY MCQUEERPANTS, DECEASED YET FAAABULOUS. I'll decorate it with stickers before I throw it down the stairwell or something. It is incredibly frustrating how reliant I became to such a stupid thing. Now I have no music to enjoy outside of the dorm. I guess that can be the final shitty excuse for me not going to drawing today (orig. excuse: I don't feel like it, see following reasons that are in no way true hinderences to going but I'll exploit them anyway).
I spent 3 hours in lab today, taking practice tests over and over for math. Then I take the test, and I get a 67%. Because there are 15 questions and I got 10 correct. This is extremely upsetting to me, as I have been working my ass off in that class to make headway, only to advance one step, and get shoved ten steps back. 72.3% in the class. If I suck it up on another test, my hopes for being done with math forever shall be brutally dashed upon the rocks and maimed before my very eyes. It is exceptionally frustrating, you have no idea. I AM SO CLOSE to never having to endure such pain. Yet. It's dangling in front of my nose, and I can't reach it. Carrot on a stick. Carrot on a stupid stick.
My German test grade showed up online today, too! A 65%. Hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha. CHRIST. Can I fail a little more please. I don't think people can see how utterly stupid I am.
Irony: My total grade in the class rose a point and a half, even with the 65. Lol?
Like everyone else lately (I think), the self-esteem has been going into the negative intergers. These classes make me feel so...stupid. Even stuff I thought I'd be good at I suck at. At least drawing's been okay. The only thing I'm good at, and yet, not good enough in to really become successful. I'm sure I'll be come a dime-a-dozen effects artist. I'm such a hack. I'm not even motivated or consistent enough to finish my own work, how am I supposed to get stuff for OTHER people done?
Next weekend can't come soon enough. I just want to have a chance to not have to...worry. Or stress. Or WHINE AND COMPLAIN IN MY ELJAY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
The happy highlight of the week so far is that I have found my Wally Pleasant shirt. I had hoped it'd bring me good luck, but like most things, it fell short of my expectations. Lol goodbye 3.89 GPA. (Not that it matters, as I am LEAVING this soulcrushing school next semester to do FUN things.)
My iPod has finally decided to die and have multitudes of file corruptions. I never named it before, but now I name it FAGGY MCQUEERPANTS, DECEASED YET FAAABULOUS. I'll decorate it with stickers before I throw it down the stairwell or something. It is incredibly frustrating how reliant I became to such a stupid thing. Now I have no music to enjoy outside of the dorm. I guess that can be the final shitty excuse for me not going to drawing today (orig. excuse: I don't feel like it, see following reasons that are in no way true hinderences to going but I'll exploit them anyway).
I spent 3 hours in lab today, taking practice tests over and over for math. Then I take the test, and I get a 67%. Because there are 15 questions and I got 10 correct. This is extremely upsetting to me, as I have been working my ass off in that class to make headway, only to advance one step, and get shoved ten steps back. 72.3% in the class. If I suck it up on another test, my hopes for being done with math forever shall be brutally dashed upon the rocks and maimed before my very eyes. It is exceptionally frustrating, you have no idea. I AM SO CLOSE to never having to endure such pain. Yet. It's dangling in front of my nose, and I can't reach it. Carrot on a stick. Carrot on a stupid stick.
My German test grade showed up online today, too! A 65%. Hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha. CHRIST. Can I fail a little more please. I don't think people can see how utterly stupid I am.
Irony: My total grade in the class rose a point and a half, even with the 65. Lol?
Like everyone else lately (I think), the self-esteem has been going into the negative intergers. These classes make me feel so...stupid. Even stuff I thought I'd be good at I suck at. At least drawing's been okay. The only thing I'm good at, and yet, not good enough in to really become successful. I'm sure I'll be come a dime-a-dozen effects artist. I'm such a hack. I'm not even motivated or consistent enough to finish my own work, how am I supposed to get stuff for OTHER people done?
Next weekend can't come soon enough. I just want to have a chance to not have to...worry. Or stress. Or WHINE AND COMPLAIN IN MY ELJAY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
The happy highlight of the week so far is that I have found my Wally Pleasant shirt. I had hoped it'd bring me good luck, but like most things, it fell short of my expectations. Lol goodbye 3.89 GPA. (Not that it matters, as I am LEAVING this soulcrushing school next semester to do FUN things.)
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I learned that theres alot of negative electrons in the air during the cold rainy/snow seasons and that they do affect our emotions.
as for your IPOD.... i seriously don't know how you will go on D:
it supplies theme music to the everyday musicless life
then again this can give your eardrums to heal from the damage your IPOD has caused to it. xD
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But wait. You're in an art store. Why WOULD you have napkins?
Well someone should make an anti-negative electrons repellant spray or something. XD They'd make billions.
I know, right? I am going to have to go to drawing class and just listen to....nothing. For three hours, what. DX
Though yeah, I'll be the only woman with hearing in sixty years so. XD