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noellenoSomeone should run my dog over or something, because that would be the perfect ending to this emosong that is MY DAY TODAY.
My iPod has finally decided to die and have multitudes of file corruptions. I never named it before, but now I name it FAGGY MCQUEERPANTS, DECEASED YET FAAABULOUS. I'll decorate it with stickers before I throw it down the stairwell or something. It is incredibly frustrating how reliant I became to such a stupid thing. Now I have no music to enjoy outside of the dorm. I guess that can be the final shitty excuse for me not going to drawing today (orig. excuse: I don't feel like it, see following reasons that are in no way true hinderences to going but I'll exploit them anyway).
I spent 3 hours in lab today, taking practice tests over and over for math. Then I take the test, and I get a 67%. Because there are 15 questions and I got 10 correct. This is extremely upsetting to me, as I have been working my ass off in that class to make headway, only to advance one step, and get shoved ten steps back. 72.3% in the class. If I suck it up on another test, my hopes for being done with math forever shall be brutally dashed upon the rocks and maimed before my very eyes. It is exceptionally frustrating, you have no idea. I AM SO CLOSE to never having to endure such pain. Yet. It's dangling in front of my nose, and I can't reach it. Carrot on a stick. Carrot on a stupid stick.
My German test grade showed up online today, too! A 65%. Hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha. CHRIST. Can I fail a little more please. I don't think people can see how utterly stupid I am.
Irony: My total grade in the class rose a point and a half, even with the 65. Lol?
Like everyone else lately (I think), the self-esteem has been going into the negative intergers. These classes make me feel so...stupid. Even stuff I thought I'd be good at I suck at. At least drawing's been okay. The only thing I'm good at, and yet, not good enough in to really become successful. I'm sure I'll be come a dime-a-dozen effects artist. I'm such a hack. I'm not even motivated or consistent enough to finish my own work, how am I supposed to get stuff for OTHER people done?
Next weekend can't come soon enough. I just want to have a chance to not have to...worry. Or stress. Or WHINE AND COMPLAIN IN MY ELJAY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
The happy highlight of the week so far is that I have found my Wally Pleasant shirt. I had hoped it'd bring me good luck, but like most things, it fell short of my expectations. Lol goodbye 3.89 GPA. (Not that it matters, as I am LEAVING this soulcrushing school next semester to do FUN things.)
My iPod has finally decided to die and have multitudes of file corruptions. I never named it before, but now I name it FAGGY MCQUEERPANTS, DECEASED YET FAAABULOUS. I'll decorate it with stickers before I throw it down the stairwell or something. It is incredibly frustrating how reliant I became to such a stupid thing. Now I have no music to enjoy outside of the dorm. I guess that can be the final shitty excuse for me not going to drawing today (orig. excuse: I don't feel like it, see following reasons that are in no way true hinderences to going but I'll exploit them anyway).
I spent 3 hours in lab today, taking practice tests over and over for math. Then I take the test, and I get a 67%. Because there are 15 questions and I got 10 correct. This is extremely upsetting to me, as I have been working my ass off in that class to make headway, only to advance one step, and get shoved ten steps back. 72.3% in the class. If I suck it up on another test, my hopes for being done with math forever shall be brutally dashed upon the rocks and maimed before my very eyes. It is exceptionally frustrating, you have no idea. I AM SO CLOSE to never having to endure such pain. Yet. It's dangling in front of my nose, and I can't reach it. Carrot on a stick. Carrot on a stupid stick.
My German test grade showed up online today, too! A 65%. Hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha. CHRIST. Can I fail a little more please. I don't think people can see how utterly stupid I am.
Irony: My total grade in the class rose a point and a half, even with the 65. Lol?
Like everyone else lately (I think), the self-esteem has been going into the negative intergers. These classes make me feel so...stupid. Even stuff I thought I'd be good at I suck at. At least drawing's been okay. The only thing I'm good at, and yet, not good enough in to really become successful. I'm sure I'll be come a dime-a-dozen effects artist. I'm such a hack. I'm not even motivated or consistent enough to finish my own work, how am I supposed to get stuff for OTHER people done?
Next weekend can't come soon enough. I just want to have a chance to not have to...worry. Or stress. Or WHINE AND COMPLAIN IN MY ELJAY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
The happy highlight of the week so far is that I have found my Wally Pleasant shirt. I had hoped it'd bring me good luck, but like most things, it fell short of my expectations. Lol goodbye 3.89 GPA. (Not that it matters, as I am LEAVING this soulcrushing school next semester to do FUN things.)
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Date: 2006-11-14 08:29 pm (UTC)D: You think someone's spreading it through the air? Like germ warfare or something? Because that would make sense. Also, we could put together a coalition to fight the enemy, and I like coalitions.
Feel better~ ♥ ♥ ♥
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Date: 2006-11-14 10:00 pm (UTC)I srsly think this time of year, like flu season, is something that automatically shows up to ruin everyone's month. That is, until turkey consumption. Then it's a little better, and we can last a little longer.
I be feeling better, yes. Since I tabulated my grades and I maaay be panicking for nothing. XD
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Date: 2006-11-15 02:05 am (UTC)I learned that theres alot of negative electrons in the air during the cold rainy/snow seasons and that they do affect our emotions.
as for your IPOD.... i seriously don't know how you will go on D:
it supplies theme music to the everyday musicless life
then again this can give your eardrums to heal from the damage your IPOD has caused to it. xD
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Date: 2006-11-15 07:34 pm (UTC)But wait. You're in an art store. Why WOULD you have napkins?
Well someone should make an anti-negative electrons repellant spray or something. XD They'd make billions.
I know, right? I am going to have to go to drawing class and just listen to....nothing. For three hours, what. DX
Though yeah, I'll be the only woman with hearing in sixty years so. XD
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Date: 2006-11-15 03:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-11-15 07:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-11-16 03:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-11-15 08:15 am (UTC)MP3 trouble = YES. OH HOW I KNOW. Except that only happened to mine once and it was promptly replaced. This is why you opt for something non-iPod-like. Like a Zen. :D ..:D:D:D:D *HINTTTT?!*
God, maths. Those were the most horrible years of my life, and even though I went spectacularly shit last year, I got it over and done with, and as shit as THIS year has been, it has been maths free. And that was good. Wholesomely so. I don't think I've ever, ever hated a subject so much. My stomach juices curdled at the thought of having to attend classes, of doing the tests, taking the exams, et cetera.
ALTHOUGH. I've learnt over the past few years that German comes almost as close as the root of all evil. In the past TWO years I've learnt to dislike it, and in the past year (namely this one), I've learnt to absolutely loathe it. But speaking it, now, I suppose, is all in good fun. Cos I'm not getting marked on it. Ja! Sehr lustig.
And the self-esteem thing.. aiiiyrgdf. Just you wait until all our scores come out. :| I will hate that day like the plague hates plague-antidotes (what?).
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Date: 2006-11-15 07:38 pm (UTC)I. I don't know. I like the iPod interface so much. ): And I have an excuse to get a shinier, bigger one..! Just not the money. XD Lawd.
That's just the thing! All I gotta do is get a C, and this'll be the end of math FOREVAR. It's being so danged difficult. I got a hundred percent on two homeworks today and it didn't shift my grade at all, what. XD
My test grades dropped about 7 points each time in German. XD I really wish there was a pattern to associating die, der, and das to items, cause that was half my errors!
I am actually stocking cute encouraging kitty pictures for the sake of spamming your Post-Grade-Reception AngstReport™, cause I know it is going to be quite the whopper.
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Date: 2006-11-15 05:23 pm (UTC)Woah 10/15? That's actually pretty cool; how'd that come to be 67% D8??! Man, good luck on it all, yo. If you keep trying, I bet you'll be able to pull it off. I'll cheer you on ♥
& no worries, classes are classes. It doesn't mean you're stupid or anything. Imo, intelligence/smarts come from you & aren't determined by tests or classes. & you seem like a pretty smart person, so it's like ♥ your way. Hope you feel better soon~
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Date: 2006-11-15 07:40 pm (UTC)That is such a good idea. I will def. take some pictures of the wreckage of Faggy McQueerpants. BD
I KNOW RIGHT. You get like 3 wrong and it's a C. Lol, thanks for the cheers. Somehow, I will defeat this monstrosity of a math lab.
Classes are asses amirite. XD