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100% pure chickenshit
Rhuematologist tomorrow.
Hnn.
I know I should say yes to injections. Hell, I should say yes and have water drained, too. My left knee is so puffy and the water shifts when I walk sometimes and makes me stumble. I haven't had an injection in well over a year, and I know how helpful it is, even if it's just a temporary fix. It'll let me bend my knees and walk pain-free.
But I can't get over the feeling of that needle going through muscle and into my bones. It's the absolute worst feeling I've ever had in my life, and just thinking about it makes my stomach drop. I can feel it all over. It felt like my joint was being pulled apart. It hurt so bad. I can't make myself think long-term when I see that stupid needle and that stupid freezing solution and am laying on my back and feel my skin go numb when he freezes it and ghisjfdklmghsidoGKL:SDhfijokldsmgjdhsgijodsnklmgfdsghudisojklm;alhiuadisogfjd;klmgnjsdihaugfodjsk
I'm such a big sissy.
...My post tags have been hilariously coherent when read in the order they appear lately.
Hnn.
I know I should say yes to injections. Hell, I should say yes and have water drained, too. My left knee is so puffy and the water shifts when I walk sometimes and makes me stumble. I haven't had an injection in well over a year, and I know how helpful it is, even if it's just a temporary fix. It'll let me bend my knees and walk pain-free.
But I can't get over the feeling of that needle going through muscle and into my bones. It's the absolute worst feeling I've ever had in my life, and just thinking about it makes my stomach drop. I can feel it all over. It felt like my joint was being pulled apart. It hurt so bad. I can't make myself think long-term when I see that stupid needle and that stupid freezing solution and am laying on my back and feel my skin go numb when he freezes it and ghisjfdklmghsidoGKL:SDhfijokldsmgjdhsgijodsnklmgfdsghudisojklm;alhiuadisogfjd;klmgnjsdihaugfodjsk
I'm such a big sissy.
...My post tags have been hilariously coherent when read in the order they appear lately.