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[noelleno]

I've been walking around all day with that sticky-eyelid prelude-to-illness feeling, and I'd love to do nothing more than freebase vitamin C to prevent it if this wasn't my longass schoolday. One more class. Mildly freaked out about walking to my car! Warm weather = more muggers?? I don't know. Maybe I should, like, check my school's security page for the volunteers who walk you wherever you need to go. I'm such a tool, but at least I won't be the tool potentially attacked? Whatevs.

rawowner333 I bet you're reading this entry at some point today and let me just say THIS LUNCHROOM IS RONERY. But idk what you've been up to and my phone has no reception in here so OH WELL.

Uhh. Stuff. I don't know. It's always a little strange when people compliment my OCs or ideas; it's not something I can talk about in person, face-to-face, because I get frazzled and mumbly and start to downtalk it without realizing it. But it's just amazing to me that my stupid ideas seem significant to someone other than myself? Especially when I've been told "lol girl nobody cares about your ideas at your age" several times before. 8|a

But it does mean a lot to me, even if I just keysmash or say something stupid about it. I'm just not great at accepting praise?


Buh.


Friendships were discussed in gencomm today. We did an activity and had to list 10 close friends? And I...could barely crack 8? Not without rethinking what it meant to be a "close" friend. And after we discussed the variances on it for people it was easier, but it did make me realize how my friendships work between friends irl, online, and between genders for both. And that maybe I'm just not good at the styles of friendships as most people relate to. Female-wise, at least.

I'm not very good at long talks or deep conversation or being able to come up with something insightful to say. At least, I don't think so. And when someone gives me that kind of support, I don't know how to take it well? "Thank you" never seems enough, because it really isn't.

And even if I don't converse much...it doesn't make time spent around/with/doing something with someone any less valuable. The doing aspect of a friendship can be just as important as the saying. It's a more masculine approach, stereotypically, but everybody does it. I just hope I don't come across as too cold sometimes.


So tell me about what's been going on with you guys. I know I don't comment around as much as I ought to, but if there's something you wanna talk about? Bam. I'll try. I may not have great insight, but I do have funny icons?


I need to stop being so scared of the dark outside. Either that, or I need to make friends here. What the hale.

Comments

[dreadable.livejournal.com]

I WILL ESCORT YOU TO YOUR CAR, MA'AM.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

I swoon

[e-mily.livejournal.com]

Ten close friends? Seriously? Does that kind of shit exist?

And I have been rocking out with my crescent wrench. Getting my lighting on. Translation: new job doing lights at a real theatre. I've worked 9 days in a row, definitely well into overtime, and I am fucking loving it, and keep volunteering for more hours.

That's what's up with me. :D

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

I DUNNO MAN SOME FOLKS SEEMED COOL WITH IT I WAS LIKE "UHH"

Are you working like an electrical board controlling them from a box, or actually setting up the lighting and stuff?

[clitorighteous.livejournal.com]

yeah i've been thinking about close friendships too. i feel like, if you genuinely like and feel comfortable with someone and would go to them for help with problems if you really needed it? that's a close friend.
or something.
idk.

it worries me a lot too though so you're not alone i guess

/unhelpful

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

I can get behind that, yeah. I suppose, though, it can be defined as more than just problem-solving, depending on your needs. I mean, I'd like to have shopping friends, or video game friends, or the friends I can do ANYTHING with, or the friends that I can hang with for OTHER things and...blablabla tl;dr I had to use my Dad to fill in my 10 spots.

[dreadable.livejournal.com]

about friendship, close friends, as of right now....I've got about. 4 or 5. :'| all of them being internet but two of them I know irl so. idk. how that works. but i like the way it is. i don't need any more or less.

and for relating to the type of friendships, the important thing is that some type may not work for you and that's fine. there isn't a rule in which you have to be good at all types and also that each type isn't lesser or something like that than the other. gfhdjkl yep/

you are precious. ilu. i will eventually smash myself into you. irl. and it will be so amazing, the world might end.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

Yeah you're right
I just kinda wish I had my irl hugging friends still around 8|
I should call them and find out if they have enough of a lack of life to waste with me for a movie or something
IT WAS EASIER IN HIGH SCHOOL TO ORGANIZE THIS SHIT cause we had nothing better to do buu


I was actually thinking that if my mother still let me do the housekeeping thing on top of my park job and if I score an internship at a health clinic I could have some extra dough SO IF YOU DON'T END UP AT MY DOORSTEP I'LL END UP AT YOURS THERE'S JUST NOTHING FOR IT

[blizzardseason]

lol close friends. I... can... not name.... any.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

Mufasa

[negakat.livejournal.com]

I don't now if I should feel ashamed or not when I realize the only close friend I have anymore is my boyfriend.

And we're not even remotely close on an emotional level.

/slowly.... grows away from everyone.....,

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

*LATCHES ONTO ANKLE.

[rawowner333.livejournal.com]

D:

I'M SORRY!! i know it's SO RONERY. i'm there all day, but i had to go, and i couldn't even tell you even if you had reception..cuz i my phone broke again (can't use the touch screen....)

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

BOY WHAT'D YOU DO TO YOUR PHONE

[marbles-chan.livejournal.com]

I'm still scared of the dark D:

Also, idk man. It's hard to determine what should be classified as a "close" friend. I thought me and my group of high school friends (we're a motley crew of 5) were pretty dang close, but it wasn't 'til college that we realized just how little we knew about each other. It probably has something to do with how we're all in different universities now, that we try to spend every other weekend with each other, idk. But we're the closest we've ever been right now, I think.

Hope you don't get sick, Elle! I know the feeling, and hate it with every fibre of my being, I swear. D|

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

I'M JUST SCARED BEING OUTSIDE ALONE IN THE DARK My imagination is hyperactive about these things :<

I think closeness is pretty subjective, anyway, and trying to slot it into a single place is too hard to do. :|a Cause there's different puproses for friends, and not every friend has to be all-encompassing, etc.

I'M ABSORBING ORANGE JUICE WHEN I GET HOME I WILL HAVE NONE OF THIS.

[thanoodles.livejournal.com]

I don't know, friendship is so subjective. Each person handles emotions and people differently. Putting a pattern to it is sort of,., offensive! And delusional?? Idek. I have enough friends, be it irl or online, and I hate it when someone claims this isn't true. :I

and girl you deserve all the compliments you get
everything you do is delicious

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

But there ARE patterns and it's not like being different from that is BAD but. It's nice to just see...where some things seem to transcend certain situations or people or whatever. Cause I hate not knowing what I'm expected to be. Or. Something. I'm getting paranoid about it. Idk. *goes to live under a rock


Liar.

[supergabbie.livejournal.com]

idk it's like, I have plenty of friends but "close" friends? I have like... 5. the rest are like, I MEAN I LIKE THEM but I don't talk to them every day or even at all over AIM or something, it's like idk-- when someone has that one person they talk to on the phone/see every day and then those friends they only see in class kind of thing. /shrugs

/compliments

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

There's a lot of research I've been going through about "close" friends and the dynamics of it in terms of gender and things like that, so I don't think more or less is better or WORSE, but it just troubles me that if I had a problem and DIDN'T have the internet? I'd be kind of. Stuck. And that worries me. :\

[aymiah]

introverts unite

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

I miss hand holding

[thanatoast.livejournal.com]

yeah I have maybe 4 or 5 "close friends". Which is fine for me, honestly. Some people have large extended networks, and some have just a few people.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

Yeah I think different strokes for different folks is perfectly valid

[hako-neko.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry if I've made you feel awkward when I discuss your OCs and stories with you. I love picking your brain and seeing your ideas because: DAMN! You're really creative and have a very colourful thought process that I admire.

I don't worry about people not commenting on my journals, since they're all about nuts at work or how sad I am with school. LOL DO NOT FEEL BAD. You are missing nothing.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

NO IT'S OKAY i"m just like
adkfls how does anyone like my stuipd shgiosdfkfkmlds

But it makes me happy that you do :c

[annalol.livejournal.com]

i'm always afraid of walking around at night but i'm on this isolated college campus so i'm pretty sure it's fine til like midnight :S...

i have a big midterm tomorrowjikds

more intense things are happening but that is all i can think about right now

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

What subjecto

[obtains.livejournal.com]

I am not so good with that long lasting friendship thing. At least to an extent. I also am not really that great at deep and meaningful conversation, though I am sure if people are giving it to you, they really mean it and thank you is a good way of showing appreciation as any.

I don't even really have close friends at school, either. I have a few whom I like but I don't consider them close friends. I have a lot of really amazing friends back in my hometown I see sometimes. Most of my really close friends are people I met outside of school through fandom at cons, or even sometimes livejournal people I have met with IRL. Going to cons has helped me see more than half my flist at least once. SO I OWE IT TO THAT??

WHY AM I TL;DRING AT YOU??

hi, I am tired and my day was pretty baller for random circumstantial reasons.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

YOU ARE ALMOST DEEPLY CONVERSING WATCH YOSELF GURL
just kidding I like hearing about it. Cause I enjoy learning things :>


is baller good or bad.,

[stutterbird.livejournal.com]

hurghaslkj well FOR THE RECORD, whenever you im me it makes me really happy and i really enjoy talking to you. you're the kind of friend i feel like i can genuinely trust with more or less anything, and most importantly, i respect you as much as i like you.

:v as for me well

biggest thing is... mcat. in august. i feel like i have to do a lot of growing up soon and... i don't know if i'm ready. i'm not even ready to stop being a teenager yet, and i'm actually sort of dreading my birthday. college is stressful but i like it. and i'm scared of going out into the real world.

[noelleno.livejournal.com]

YOU KNOW I THINK LIKEWISE FOREVER.


Afdks I know how you feel. :< It feels too sudden. S'why I'm back. But maybe if you find a routine that works it'll be okay?

[pockythoughts.livejournal.com]

I hear where you're coming from, dude. I can count on one hand the number of people I consider close friends, and I've been told on a few occasions that my mind works in a more masculine way. And I don't comment around much either? I'm discovering we have a lot in common with this post... The way I see it, it just makes us unique and awesome. X3

What's going on with me? Just doing my jaerb, hanging out with the BF and letting CnC eat my soul. My life is boring. ^^a

[okura-chan.livejournal.com]

10 close friends...? It's sad that I could probably only put my older brother there. It really is. andnoit'snotcute--it's very, very sad

We have security guys who'll escort people to their cars if it's night. You're not being a tool. I'd probably do that if I drove to university (because I'm kinda scared of walking in the dark).

Um. I went back to university last week. That's the only significant thing I can think of...

[vangirl]

I'm not very good at long talks or deep conversation or being able to come up with something insightful to say. At least, I don't think so.

I've actually been in an argument with someone who believed I didn't consider her a friend because I wasn't having deep, insightful conversations with her; even though I talked with her every day about what's gone on in my day, what frustrates me, what makes me feel good, etc. etc. I considered her a very close friend and it hurt to be dismissed because I wasn't talking about the meaning of life or something that was more insightful than "I filled out a job application and played some WoW, and had to deal with some immature players that annoyed me because they blah blah and OH I WROTE SOMETHING, WANT TO SEE?"

I think it's rather...odd, that some people seem to earnestly think that talking about "deep" stuff regularly is what makes people 'close'. I just like to think that being able to go up to you and blabber about whatever and not feel awkward at all would be what makes us close.

...That's how I've been anyway. XD

[vangirl]

BUT YES. FRIENDS ARE SILLY. WHO NEEDS THEM?

oh cursed humans, why must we be such social and complicated creatures?

[rabbitfacts.livejournal.com]

dude I can't even name two close friends. I'm a failure in that respect. :|||

I.... don't really know what to think about close friends except that everyone I tried to trust let me down so. yeah.

I worry about this too much fffffff