LOOK! OVER IN THAT RECLINER!

•The Incredible Hulk is now scored by my dad's test-recordings of a new song. WITNESS HULK AND THE ABOMINATION DO WILD COMBAT TO THE SOUNDS OF A GROOVY BLUES GUITAR RIFF AND BASSLINE!
•Space Jam is now scored by Oreo's poorbrilliant taste. Michael Jordan is THE BEST THE BEST THE BEST THE BEST.
•Team America's soundtrack is now sung by Carnage and Bullseye in a white trash trailer park. There's no getting around it.


In other news, I must be pretty gaming-retarded or something because I cannot get out of this first-level dungeon/map thing in Elder Scrolls at all. I have torches equipped but fuck if I know how to select them. AND I KEEP DYING BECAUSE RATS JUMP UP AND HUMP MY FACE WITH THEIR CLAWS AND TEETH AND IT'S TOO DARK TO SEE WHERE THEY'RE COMING FROM.

Hrrr.

Batch three of Christmas cards, coming up. Theyneverend.

My dream last night involved me and Gene going to TJ Maxx for whatever reason--except I made Gene stay in the car. And I just walked around this dinky store over and over thinking "This is where Mrs. Rama shops look at all these flippy skirts and junk." And then I left and that...was it.

As these credits for the movie roll, my mind wanders back to that idle thought I tend to have about making an art piece for Maria Yap (one of the random names that's on the loaderscreen for Photoshop) just because her name's Maria Yap. I feel like I should just select random crewmen names off of films I like and dedicate a drawing to them. "Congratulations! You were the Key Grip on the Bourne Supremacy! HAVE A SHITTY DRAWING."

...I don't know.

Goddd Atlantis: The Lost Empire would be so GOOD if it was a show and not a movie hrnghnhgn. I wish I had found it playing on tv sooner I woulda recorded it just so I could watch Milo's body language and facial quirks. I remember hearing that the production team had shirts that had the film title and: "less singing, more explosions" as their tagline. I wonder if Mr. K has their "yearbook"--some of the films get these, like, yearbook things printed for them? And they're REALLY COOL he has like the Hercules and Mulan ones and it has photos of all the crew and staff and little fun doodles and just. Really cool.

My drive to be at all successful in a creative career must either not be enough or I'm just in a perpetual slump okay. I have not hashed a new portfolio layout or even TRIED to make my website functional in months. If you stick lines of code in front of me my eyes glaze over and I just stop caring. Maybe it'd be best if I just chucked a website into Flash, where I can code without wanting to die. Get a preloader, embed it, and whoop-di-doo. There's enough reason to believe I can get away with that, considering average webspeeds and screensizes of potential clients. My minimalist ass would love to just design in 780x580 because it's easier to work in fullview, but no. Go big or go home or. Something. LARGE PARAGRAPHS.

Still no acceptance notification. Starting to worry, like a lot. Called, couldn't get through, left a message that OF COURSE will never get answered.

November second. Grace period is over and my three loans will come due. I'll be looking at like, $300 a month if I can't get a deferment. SCREAMING INSIDE SO SHRILLY, YOU GUYS.

I wish my character index was done. EVEN IF JUST BECKY AND I GIVE A DAMN I would just like the satisfaction of having all these idiots in my head catalogued. It'd make them feel more official? And people could go "oh who's this" and I could go "WELL LADDIE/LASSIE, IF YOU CHECK THIS PAGE OUT YOU'LL NOW :D"

And then people would realize some of my ideas aren't ripoffs of shows/movies because they've been in my head for over a decade and a half. orz No I guess they'd still seem ripoffy because it only counts if you make money. Thanks, Harvey Fierstein.

OKAY ANYWAY ha ha. It is Wednesday. I should. Pick up comics. Fill out more job apps. Finish my Question mask. Not sit here and write myself into anxiety this is supposed to be a comforting hobby, writing out shit.

Oh want to hear something funny that's not at all. Detroit is so full of funny that's not funny at all! Some guy bit his neighbor a couple days ago, broke the skin on his face? AND THEN TELLS EVERYONE HE'S HIV-POSITIVE WAY TO GO MAN. Way to go. Teehee I should just not turn on local news it's going to be nothing but that and Michael Jackson movie reaction crap I don't care about!!!

OH YEAH LAST THING so Al Pacino's in town still? Filming something about Dr. Kavorkian/theguywiththedeathmachine/idkhowtospellhisname? And I'm like "oh okay" and then Dad hears about it and goes "I hear Feiger's on set giving his actor tips DID HE TELL HIM TO ACT LIKE PURE EVIL??" and I laughed :'| Ohhh Dad dislikes Mr. Feiger it kind of rubs off on me but we have good fun when his commercials come on and he talks about stuff.

GOD I ACCIDENTALLY LISTENED TO A LINKIN PARK SONG ON THE WAY HOME HRNGH it didn't sound like them I swear I am so out of this Popular Music Today thing I just listen to whatever's on the River.,..it's not my fault my radio said it was the Stills but I knew it wasn't then suddenly near the end of the song it was like "LOL J/K THIS IS LINKIN PARK YOU TOOL"

But it wasn't a terrible song. Which is weird because usually those guys' voices annoy the bajeezus out of me. Maybe I'm just softer on them now because I hate Nickelback so much nowadays. My friend Jakey works for Paul Reed Smith guitars over in Maryland and told me that Chad Krueger or however you spell it walked in on him to check on his work and was the biggest piece of bblkfdsjgpiodfkasl. "You keep making good guitars and I'll keep making good songs" LOL WHAT IS THIS. GET OUT OF MY EARS FOREVER.

*breathes*

Guys I tried okay. I tried. *holds Tsubasa in hands


lets it drop to the floor*

Now I can complain about it without it being based on never giving it a chance. I TRIED. But I cannot do it.

Fairy Tail why do you bore me lately. Maybe it just needs Arzak back in there. Even though he...never did much besides look absolutely adoreable. Fft.

Oh uh I guess I can do that thing where I pick a character I associate you with if you want? I think I did it before but that was like a zillion years ago.


And this whole I-can't-draw-anything-today thing? Needs to stop. Not even drawing Gaston in Emma Frost's outfit helps.

I HATE YOU GUYS *SHAKES POST*

Laura,

Thank you for applying for the animator position, however we have filled it with someone else. But, they have no drawing experience. And we do need someone to re-draw a few images for this animation. Most of it is done, but a few shots need to be changed. If interested, we can meet up this Monday to talk aobut it.

Thanks,

Lora.

Not sure how to feel about this yet.


Ah, sorry--the animation position is for effects animation, not like. The animation we all think of when the word pops up. So that kind of just means my AE skills weren't impressive enough but they want me to draw shit for them. And I'm feeling kind of bitter and not really up for it, but do I really have the leeway to be like that in this economy?

Probably not.

So this is me waiting for them to tell me when to show up after the shoe job on Monday. :\

Up: Oh my God fuck you Pixar. I get a new favorite movie every time this damn studio coughs something up. FFfff. Shit was all heart-wrenching and stuff. I mean, that and the fact that this movie had so many delicious textures. The shirt-and-tie sequence was a little hypnotic, I'm not gonna lie. But that could've just been me. Oogling over the textures. I love the timing that these guys have, too. I want to make sequences that read that well in storyboard. I'll work hard.

The planner is a good idea. I just need to...figure out how to set it up. I mean. Stuff-wise. How much time deserves what.

I opened up Fireworks and started doing thumbnail-ish designs for the website. Different ideas all fluttering around in my head, but I know I want to keep it...clean. Minimal. Easy to change, easy to view. To the point.




I need a little splasher for it. I used to be so proud of how I laid out big group shots. I should do another.